To Be Continued..

Yesssss, fiiinnallly internet! I have to be fast with this one since we are cheating the system right now (using the shop next door's internet) And when I say 'we', I am referring to myself and Chilkoot Cafe' by mi casa'. I have been here for over an hour and came here just to blog. I didn't even want to spend money, I just wanted to blog. But, don't worry, I got some Chai. Mm. 

To Be Continued...

To follow up on my Valentine’s Day blog, I have some fantastic news :mine and Joel’s experimental period is o v e r. Poor Joel, for having to deal with me blogging about our relationship left and right. Then again, my blog is kinda like my diary, but better, since all the times when I tried to keep one at a younger age, I failed because my thoughts were way faster than my ability to write, without my hand hurting like crazy, and in 5 seconds. So since I’m a crazy person and very experienced on a laptop, typing my feelings out works very well. Lucky me! Anyways, If you know me well, Joel and I deciding to get back together probably isn’t coming as a surprise to you. We were only broken up for a little over 3 months and that was enough... for me at least. During our time apart, I did more serious thinking (weird, I never do that) and I was reassured many times that he is who I want to be with. Now, I don’t want to get crazy, I suppose I can stop saying that now, but I see myself being with him forever. (This is a big deal for me to say, coming from the person who I was BJ(before Joel) As much as I thought about it, finding the person who you want to be with for the rest of your life, even at 23 is not a bad thing. I spend too much time freaking myself out about it. But freak out, no more. I am content. And 100% happy that I can’t be with anyone else. I’ve learned that there are small things, “annoyances” about each other that bother the daylights out of us. But when you put it in perspective, those things are completely irrelevant. I’ve learned that even after we dated for a little over 2 years, our relationship somewhat started to dwindle. But, I let it. Joel never started to slip, like I did. People who have been married for years and years, all the power to you! How the H do you do it? I know! Work! I’m learning that even the best relationships in the world are work. You need to work to keep things amazing and alive and passionate. Okay, you get it. Long story short, I’m going to be a better girlfriend this time around. Yay, I love love. March 7th, come soon please, I need kisses. 

I blame Joel for turning me into a hopeless romantic. 

Last week’s yoga was a great success by the way! Finally, after like 3 weeks of trying, we made it and on time. Even better, 3 of my best ladies came with! The lady that gave the class used to babysit me when I was younger, our moms used to work together. It was lovely to chat it up with her, introduce her to my friends, and listen to her relaxing voice speak this awesome bible verse that literally makes you appreciate who you are, imperfections and all. I wish I had it so I could post it. I will make it a point to eventually do that! I’m sure tomorrow’s will be just as wonderful. And once again, bring on the wine afterwards! I’ve fallen in love with Thursday’s.

Ah! One thing that is exciting me this moment: I learned today that Dave is back at Alpine this summer and right after July 4th– suuuuure I’ll take off the whole week! I am a sucker for summer, sun, music, beer and friends all in the same place. Sign me right up!

Lets love a little.

 

Happy Valentine's Day, all! I'm on my lunch break and have noo time to chat about everything  I want to chat about right now so, 

To Be Continued... 

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Do you know what I’m doing right now? Typing on word perfect because I am a poor ass and still don’t have internet and I want to blog so bad. So when I post this tomorrow it will be Thursday and I will probably have more to add to this which will throw this all off entirely. I just spent some time in the blog world via cell phone and reread some of my blogs and comments from last year. (My blog is almost one year old! Gosh, does time fly!) And I am realizing that my blog used to be hilarious. I laughed out loud at some parts and now I’m just asking myself why it’s not as funny. I’m still the same funny person as I used to be, defiantly one of the funniest I know ;) but why do my post seem boring to me these days? I will admit, my life isn't as exciting... I'll have to think about why later.

I sadly, and definitely will not be getting internet. I don’t know if that means anytime soon or at all. Most likely at all, because I bought a car! Saturday my dad and I hit up some dealerships and I fell in love (for a second time, and with a car I can actually afford, HURRAY!) after I had overlooked this certain car the first time around. The dealership was a zoo and after a couple hours of waiting for finance and two Dr. Peppers in, I was high on life and caffeine and I was shaking and ready to drive my beautiful new baby home. It’s not the Chevy Cruze I fell in love with the first time, but it’s the classiest thing I have seen on wheels that lives in my price range. I also learned that the Chevy Cruze took over the Cobalt, and that is probably why I was so drawn to it in the first place. Gosh, I loved my cobalt. RIP lady. I bought a Ford Fushion that has everything I wanted and more. I didn’t even look at cars that didn’t have a sun roof. I sound like a brat. But why settle? The only thing about the car that I did not love, was that it has 100,00 miles on it. After my dad convinced me that if I took good care of it and got regular oil changes (which I failed at miserably with my first car) that it would defintately last me 5,6 more years. I test drove her and she was sold! On my drive home, to techno of course, I did not forget to bring Kaskade with me, my mom called. “Hiiii momm! I am talking on the phone in my new car and I’m not even touching my phone!! Ahhhhh” If bluetooth is turned on on my phone when I get in my car, I can make calls, receive calls and do other jazz with my phone without even touching it. It could be in my purse in the back seat. It’s pretty awesome. Although, I’m afraid this feature is going to motivate me to actually answer the phone when it rings, instead of screening it and texting whoever called a few minutes later. Dammit. I do have to say, I have been working on my phone skills in the last couple weeks and I think I am doing just lovely. I have to mentally prepare myself but I seem to get less anxious, and I don’t have to pace around the room! I’m making progress! :)

Tomorrow, so today to you, ha! I’m going to yoga with some girlfriends. We have been failing so hard at it the last couple weeks and will fail no more. I’m in the mood for wise, inspiring words, warmth, candles and my bests at my side. And in all reality, there will be wine post yoga, which makes it even better!

The last sentence of my horoscope the other day said, “It may be smarter to quit while you’re ahead and start over.” Of course, yesterday I started analyzing what this could mean. I’m a weirdo in a sense that my horoscopes have always been dead on and freakishly accurate with what’s going on in my life so I check them daily. Although, sometimes I don’t quite know which area of my life it is referencing! I want to say, this time it is referring to Joel. Maybe I need to just chill out and see what else is out there. Hmm, that actually sounds lovely! Trrrouuubblleeee.

Yay! Happy Thursday!

Chocolate penis.

That got your attention didn't it? 

Watch out friends, my blogs for the next couple weeks might be taken over by my thoughts and feelings about my love going to Europe.. for 5 weeks. I can still call him my love even though we aren't dating, so get off me. Gosh, to some people, I'm probably coming off as some crazy girl who's still in love with and adores her ex-boyfriend. But, that's legit, minus the crazy ;) This week at work, a girl, who's a good friend to a few of the girls I work with, has started coming into my room to observe my babies for school. After letting her know that I had today off she was curious why. "Umm, I'm taking a friend to the airport." How weird does that sound? Friend? When Joel and I have never just been friends. I told him that this morning on our drive to the airport and he agreed how weird it is talking to anybody about our relationship right now, or trying to explain things. 

As usual, I love dropping Joel off at the airport and hugging and kissing, saying I love you and eventually driving away.. with no tears. I have yet to cry. Everyone always asks if I cry. But, why cry? Joel is chasing his dreams and I have always loved missing someone and being missed. 

But, only lonely for a little while! This is definitely going to be the longest we've been away from each other. Gosh, we might as well say we're back together, I'm just listening to myself right now. But, we're choosing to not be.. yet. The longest he's been away is 3 weeks and by week 3 it usually starts to get hard. 5 weeks is kiiiind of a long time! We celebrated our Valentines Day last night (again, this sounds like I'm talking about a boyfriend) had an amazing dinner at Bonfire, where we always get the same thing: Bontons, Bull bites, turtle cheese cake for me and a giant chocolate chip cookie for Joel. And, I got roses. "I just can't pay over $100 to have roses sent to your work on Valentine's Day from Europe, when I could spend that money on a sweet new coffee maker for you." Hm, Joel can be practical ;) So for less than $100 we spent his last night here, together, ate at bonfire and I got roses. I'd say that's a deal. 

Here is where I think I'm potentially boring you with my love life. Then again, if I was talking about my love life, you'd be sweating ;)

I am so glad that I am feeling content right now. It's my luck to total my car and have to say goodbye to Joel for 5 weeks, the week that I'm emotionally unstable. I was going to say, the week before my period, then didn't, now I'm thinking to heck with it, I can if I want to. I own this! I knew she my period was coming the other day when I walked to Cold stone on my lunch break and impulsively ordered the gotta have it size of the chocolate lovers bowl of ice cream.. with chocolate chips, brownies and extra fudge. This just brought me to an amazing picture my best friend put on my facebook yesterday.. 

Hilarious. How perfect? 

Although, I am learning that a penis that isn't chocolate and doesn't ejaculate money, isn't so bad, as ideal as that would be! Am I getting too inappropriate here? I think I might be. Alright, I won't say penis again. 

Happy Hump Day! he he

Dream on, dreamer.

Day 1 of car shopping, actually going to dealerships, not sitting online: I feel like I got nowhere. All I did was fall in love with a car that I cannot afford. Check ittttt.

 
I need to be inside this car. Tan, summer, windows down, blaring my techno. This is making my heart happy, looking at this picture and thinking these thoughts. I think I can definitely settle for no sunroof for this amazing car. And I love the blue. Up until today, I was never a fan of vehicles that weren't black, white, charcoal. Now, I'm turned on to sage green, baby blue. Where is this coming from? Ah, I know! I'm older, wiser :) Okay, I'll stop. This car is nowhere in my near future.

I must say, car shopping the first time around was a lot more fun because I was still living at home and by no means was paying the bills that I'm paying now, living happily all by my lonesome. Even with the money I got back from insurance as a down payment, my options are somewhat limited and I'm being picky. Although, I feel like, being almost 24, it's smarter for me to spend a bit more money on a car that I'm going to have for the next 5,6,7 years, verses a car that has a ridiculous amount of miles and that I won't have for more than a couple years. I feel like it's not legit for me to settle for something that I don't love, something that doesn't have everything I want. God, where is my rich husband! Kidding, I won't be marrying.. marrying... anytime.. soon. Rich man friend that wants to buy me a new car? That sounds better.

Wish me luck for tomorrow!

ps. Summer, where areee youuuuu?? I need you now.

Ahh inspiration.

"Everyone has his burden. What counts is how you carry it."

I'm having a very hard time focusing on the blog that I originally intended on writing due to getting sucked into one of my favorite shows, House Hunters. Although, along with today's events, it's making me contemplate moving somewhere where the winter is between 50 and 65 degrees and where there is never any snow, ever. The reason I have been watching HGTV all day long, realistically about 4 hours now, is because I am now stranded. Don't get me wrong, being stranded somewhere with HGTV and free internet isn't so bad ;) This morning, I totaled my car. Up until today, I have never experienced feeling completely helpless in a vehicle. It's right up there with the worst feeling ever. I was probably 4 minutes into my lovely drive to Kindercare, when I lost control going down a hill and the more I tried to turn right to try and get off the road, the more my car pulled left, right into the other lane and an oncoming car. How I calmly said, "shit, shit, shit" and didn't scream as I saw myself going downhill, and wayyy too fast into the front of another car, is beyond me. She swerved to the right, trying to get out of this insane oncoming car (me) and I swear I wasn't driving fast. My mom even said, "you are usually one to adapt and drive to weather as you need to." And I am. I hit the other car on her driver's side, spun around in a circle and eventually came to a stop. I sat for a second, took a deep breath, got out and ran to the other car, which stopped farther away from my car than I expected it to. Holy moly, was the road slippery. 


Neither of us was hurt, not one bruise. Although, when I eventually got in the car with my mom, she commented on the bruise on my cheekbone. "No mom, that's a stress zip." She pointed it out just like my babies do at work, only they actually point at it and get so close with their fingers, they actually touch it my face. 


If I had to hit anyone, I'm glad I hit the lady I did. God, if I would have had to deal with an asshole, that cares only about his/her car, I definitely would have had a hard time telling myself to have a good attitude about it. I thought to myself, There are two ways I can handle this situation. I can be crabby and think the world is ending, but that's ridiculous and not my style, orrr I can smile, and tell myself this is just a tiny little speed bump in the road of life. It is just a car, I'm alive and eventually, I get a new car out of it! 


Turns out, my insurance company wrote me a check for $6,640, hours after the accident and now I'm parked at my parents house for the next few days with a personal car shopper and driver to and from work (my mom) (Thanks, I owe you my life. You know this) and I have that much money to put down on a new car.. with a sun roof... heated seats.. automatic start.. satellite radio... Ah, this is fun. It's so weird how fast, I became helpless today and how I still think life is fantastic. 

Remember people, it's all in how you look at things.