A whole lot of feelings.

I am stressed because I haven't blogged. It has almost been a week! Eeek. I find it funny, the things I get stressed about. I stress about not reading fast enough because I want to read so many books, I get stressed about not blogging often enough, or missing a few days and I get stressed about what to wear. My life is hard ;) Or maybe it's just my mentality.

Let's start with the things I must fill you in on! 

My weekend in Milwaukee with Joel, my brother and his fiance' was greeaaat! Friday night we had a late dinner with Kimmy's (Damon's fiance') brother, sister and her boyfriend and then went to a place called fanatics. It's like Chucky Cheese for adults. Or Dave and Buster's, but I've never been there. We played a few games of bags and I was the DJ. Filling the place with ridiculous amounts of techno and house music. Sorry all, who aren't at my level ;) I was very impressed with the dance/electronia selection in that jukebox so I was milkin' it. 

We went to another bar to play some darts and I ran into a guy I graduated with! Hey Andrew! This is also the bar where I ran into a guy who looked exactly like Tiesto, I told him, and he said he's heard that before but has no idea who he is. No way. Saturday we woke up early, Damon, Joel and I went disc golfing and crossed our fingers that the sun would come out. It did! right at 3:30 when we got to Miller park to start tailgating for the Brewers game. First timer and had an wonderful time! Thanks, Damon! 

  
After the game we got back to my brother's and planned on going back out. Until I got the worst phone call ever. Now, you know me, I am not a phone person. My friend's don't just call me... so something was up when Hanna, my roommate, was calling me. Late at night. Knowing I'm out of town. Let me fill you in on the scoop-- I got my kittens in December and one was the runt. Back when we first got her she breathed kind of unevenly so Hanna took her to the vet to see what was up. "She has a weak heart and immune system" Well, we didn't think anything of it as it got better and she started to be super naughty like a normal kitten. Well, Thursday last week (the night before I was supposed to leave for Milwaukee) she started meowing like she was in pain and ended up pooping on the carpet. Weird, cats naturally know to go in a littler box.. something is up.. Hanna works doubles during the weekend so my mom made her way to our place to watch the babies on Saturday while we were both gone. Vino was totally fine then, playing, being herself. Back to the phone call: (Hanna in tears) "keegan and I are rushing Vino to the emergency vet in Oakdale, she's completely limp" ...blah blah blah.. more bad,sad things (keep in mind I'd been drinking since 4 at the Brewers game) You can imagine the amount of tears shed during this phone call. Long story short, her body completely shut down once they got to the vet :( I am out of town. I can't do anything. I am so sad for Olive who "has been just walking around the apartment meowing, like she's looking for Vino" ugh. My heart is broken. Now, 4 days later, Olive seems to be okay, but you never really know. Cats are smart animals. I do know she's been sleeping on the blanket Vino was taken to the vet in. She probably misses her sister. They are biological sisters. Vino is the black one, Olive is calico.

Okay, enough. I'm getting sad. You get how cute and amazing my kittens were together. Now Olive is just amazing by herself. So I am on a serious kitten hunt. Oli needs a friend to play with and someone to keep her company when Hanna and I aren't home. If you know of anyone who has a 5-8 month old female kitten, you let me know!

As of now, I am off to my normal Wednesday ladies night with my best friends for some dinner and most likely wiiiiiine! Bring on some serious laughs and a hurting face come 11pm. Because I do not allow myself out later than that on a week night. 

Checkyalaterrrrrr 

Vino.

I have to say, I am very excited for this weekend! Joel and I will be sleeping in tomorrow morning, which is like 8:30 ;) and then will slowly be packing and getting ready for our weekend in Milwaukee with my brother and his fiance', Kimmy. My brother, Damon, messaged me a couple weeks ago and asked if Joel and I would like to go to a Brewers game, his treat. Ummm... YES? Neither of us have ever been to one. And I am the kind of person, being from Wisconsin but so close to Minnesota, that would wear either a Vikings, Packers, Twins, or Brewers jersey and honestly not care about the outcome of the game. Either way, it's exciting for me to be at a game and socializing and drinking beers in the summertime.

I'm also very excited because I have 4 new CDs for us to listen to on our 4 hour long car drive, one way. What are these 4 amazing CDs you ask? Tiesto! Brittney! and 2 very awesome mixes put together by one of my girlfriend's friends. That sounds silly. There is nothing like driving a long distance to amazing music that you're hearing for the first time.. when the sun is out. It better be out, I heard it is supposed to be cloudy tomorrow? Not cool. (Sun, you will be out if you know what's good for you) And being with the boyfriend of course. This is our mini-vacation. We always talk about how we go on so many trips, but without each other. Pretty soon we're going to need to be in Mexico at each other's sides. Next March? Perfect. Anyways, thank you to my awesome girlfriends who gave me all 4 CDs last night after our amazing dinner and wine sesh at Urban Olive & Vine. Such good laughs. You ladies are amazing. And my life would be so boring without you. There is nothing like spending time with your girlfriends over vino. 

Cheers to amazing friends, family and road trips. With boyfriends :) Have an awesome Friday tomorrow, for those of you who are working. Suckerrrsss

and ps. Fail at going to yoga tonight. Right now, I'm eating pizza. Bahahaa 

The sun was out today.

..in more ways than one! :)

Yes-- it was a better day today! I woke up, had a little bit of a hard time getting into the shower but once that was over, I was full of energy. I'm starting to think that I think my body needs more sleep than I actually do. I, for some reason, didn't fall asleep fast last night so I last looked at the clock at 5 to midnight. I, on my own, woke up at 7. Hmm. But forced myself to stay in bed until 7:30, which made it more difficult to get out, I think. Probably shouldn't do that. So, 7 hours it is? We'll see tomorrow morning. 

Work today, was great. I haven't said that in awhile. My co-teacher, my bosses and I'm sure ladies I work with, all know that last week was quite an intense/emotional week for some of us. I think last week was probably the most frustrating week for me. Ever. At Kindercare. But today, I started to see the sunshine again. I laughed a lot with my kids and co- teacher. You're probably thinking, "stupid, don't you do that everyday?" Wellllll, let me tell you. These past few weeks have been quite challenging in our classroom. For various reasons I will not go into, because it would take up an entire post. 

Yesterday, I found a sticker sheet with two stickers on it. One of a heart and one of a crown. I gave the heart to my co-teacher to put on her jacket and I took the crown for myself. Today, one of my kids asked about my crown sticker. I then told them that they couldn't call me Ms. Kelsey anymore, that I would only respond to Princess Kelsey. This was really funny later in the afternoon when one of my kids yelled, "Ms. Kelsey!?" outside, and one of my little girls corrected him with, "It's Princess Kelsey!" I thought that was pretty funny. 


I finally got in touch with someone from Wisconsin Department of Motor Vehicles today! yayyy! Relief. Well, kind of. I now, have to get in contact with the woman I saw for counseling after that mess of a few months after my DUI (family counseling was recommended verses outpatient treatment-- I can touch more on that later) so she can fax a letter saying I actually followed through with my counseling. Bring on the phone tag with that one! Getting that taken care of on my break today took a huge weight off my shoulders. I also did all the dishes, you know that will make me feel better :)

Ugghh.

How badly do you want to read this post when it's entitled, "Ugghh??" haha I'm sorry. I actually thought while I was typing that that I should just title it something chipper and happy but I have no idea whyyy I am not chipper and happy right now. Clearly, I am not slapping you in the face with really happy, exciting posts just yet ;) I told my co-teacher at work today that I seriously think I am going through an almost-mid life crisis. Almost, because I turn 23 years young on the 28th. And that's another thing! This is my birthday month. I should just be cheesin' like I usually am. And during this month especially. This is very frustrating because this thing that I'm in or going through-- it never lasts more than a week. Never. So this is serious. Maybe I'm over thinking everything.

Today I decided that I am going to start "Operation- become content again." I will do all the things that put on smile on my face and make me feel content in my life and see if I still feel "not content" and if I do it's time for some serious change. I will:

1. go to yoga tonight. Which I failed at because my parents invited Joel and I over for a delicious dinner. Which is okay because food and a full belly make me happy too! I will just go to yoga on Thursday. Mark my words! 
2. do some serious quote reading. This is one thing that always makes me feel better. I love when reading and talking with interesting people put my life in perspective. I plan to pull out 1,2,3 maybe all 5 of my quote books when I get home from my parent's tonight. 
3. finish cleaning and organizing. This week! I am working on my laundry now and I plan to accomplish all the cleaning I had planned on doing this weekend but failed to do. Cleaning makes me feel better, it's crazy, I know. 
4. try really hard to get back to working out this week. But I probably won't. I say this almost every week but after this weekend (this weekend filled with a ridiculous amount of doing nothing-- after our amazing Friday night that is) I need to get my energy back. I was telling Joel the other day that I feel like either I am crazy full of energy and am off the walls or I have absolutely none and am so sluggish. I need to eat more green food! 
5. spend time with my girlfriends. My girlfriend, Sarah, just moved into a new apartment in Mpls. I have to visit her and I'm sure fall in love with her new place. If not this week, definitely early next week. 
6. read!!! I need to get into The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. I have a list sitting next to me of all the books I need to read. One, is Water for Elephants and I hear that is being made into a movie and I absolutely have to read the book before I see the movie. I have to! I almost stress myself out thinking about all the books I want to read. It's silly, I know. I often allow myself to get stressed out about silly things. breathe. 

Another thing that I know will make me feel better: going to a craft sale with my mom on Wednesday. I know, I sound old. I'm cool with it :) Oak Marsh craft sale in Woodbury is always a goodie. 

So I am hoping tomorrow I wake up and feel fully rested. This morning my alarm went off and I was dreaming that I was warming up for our soccer game in high school and the game was about to start and all I wanted to do was play so I didn't want to get out of bed. Maybe that's a sign telling me to get back to being active and working out? I think so.


Get me out of this funk. 

 
 

Hellooo April.

So I was going to blog yesterday about how amazing Friday's show was but I was so sluggish and exhausted. By the time I had energy, it was put into showering and getting lovely looking and heading out to Kylie's parents house for some Indian food and martinis. Mmm. And I'm training myself to like spicy food. I am definitely getting better.

Tiesto's show was awesome! But when is it not? I had the whole day to prepare.. took a nice slow time getting ready.. had 3 cups of coffee.. was bouncing off the walls and dancing before we had even left to head to St. Paul. That seems to do the trick: late night? at least 2 cups of coffee. Because I am a grandma. A grandma who loves trance. What can I say? I live a balanced life. So our friend David, who we graduated high school with conveniently works for a cab company for one of the bars in Hudson and so gladly agreed to drive us to and from the show. Wew, that takes off stress. Thanks so much for doing that Davey! We really appreciate it. 

Not going to lie, none of us were impressed with how full the auditorium was (that is why I LOVE Epic, no matter where you are, he's close to you and the place always fills up so nice) Towards the start of the show, the floor was about packed but hardly any of the seats were taken up once you looked up into the balcony seating. Weird. The light show was amazing.. I try so hard to take pictures and videos but it's so hard when all your body really wants to do is dance, not stay still to take a good video. You definitely aren't thinking that way when you're there. Maybe after the fact. I always say how lucky I am that all my girlfriends love this stuff as much as I do. When I fell in love with techno in high school, I was about the only one at of all my friends. That didn't last long, it's easy to fall in love with. All in all, we made a crazy amount of friends, like we usually do at the shows we go to. And we're all so good at that :) I really did murder the dance floor and I was continuing even when we weren't on it anymore.. during the walk to the cab.. the cab ride home.. even when we got back to Sam Bams to continue to shit grin and talk about how amazing our night was. Hanna broke the strap to her purse while trying to run to Tiesto when he was finished and came towards the end of the stage to touch everyone's hands. god, that would have been great. No hand touch, but the effort made it okay that the purse was broken. We got so close towards the end of the show. And people weren't even weird about us coming up and invading their space. Probably because we are all awesome? ;) I saw a girl I had in my 5th grade class at the show and oddly ran into her quite often. With all the moving around we did I thought that was somewhere weird. I hadn't seen her since 5th grade and she found me of facebook a couple years ago. We also saw some guys that we graduated with that we would have never thought to see at a show like that- plus ten points. I wish I had a group picture of all of us to put on here, but sadly I didn't get one. Tier? Sam? Someone's got to have one! I said a few times, there couldn't be a better way to start out our birthday month. And of course, he surprised us with a nice little announcement that his latest CD comes out on the 5th.. soo two days. Amazinggg. Joel and I will be listening to that loveliness on our drive to Milwaukee this weekend. Thank goodness Joel likes Tiesto too. 

How far away we were at the beginning of the night

I wish I had sweet videos to show you :(

 I feel like there is so much more to tell you. I will most likely remember things after I have published this post. Oh well, it will give me an excuse to tell you about the time I was about 3 feet away from Tiesto at the after party the night we saw him in Chicago! I am smiling just thinking about that moment. 

Fun News.

Well we just got some fun news. Joel will be opening up for Ari Herstand on Sunday, April 17th at the Varsity Theatre. Remember in my awesome April line up post? We had been planning to go either way, but just found out Joel will be able to share the stage with him! Ari is a very talented, unique musician. He loops all his music. If you listen to his CD, you would think he's got an entire band playing with him, but really he does it all himself and "loops" or records certain instruments or beats and then continues to play them while he plays other instruments and sings. It's pretty fun to watch. Anyways, our friend's, Alli and Kyle introduced us/ turned us on to him last summer I think? Here is a picture of us at one of his shows we all attended together: 

What a cute entourage. Smile Joel! 

And there's Ari in the background! Joel is very excited and I am oh so proud of him. You are so talented at everything you do, babe. How lucky I am to have you ;)

Anticipation.

I took the day off today because it is an occasion. Well, and because yesterday was Joel's 24th birthday and I knew it was probably going to be a late night. Which it was. He played at Throwbacks in Woodbury and our families were there as well as friends, some I hadn't seen forever. I loved the familiar company, which I always do! 

Back to why today is an occasion. Tonight is the one night every few months where my girlfriends and I have the oppurtunity to see the love of our lives and all his talent! Tiesto! love. love. love. I guess I shouldn't say every couple months.. because that would be amazing to see him that frequently. There is no way I would ever get sick of it. We all saw him last time he was in Mpls and also made the trek to see him in Chicago. And we all wore wigs. Gosh, that was the best weekend ever. I was telling my girlfriend the other day that I feel so lucky to have so many "wow, this is the best time of my life" moments and each one is usually better than the last. How wonderful life is to us. 

So I purposely didn't "do it big" last night because I have to bring my "A" game today/tonight. I have seriously done nothing with my day at this point, which is the perfect way to get myself ready for endless dancing in heels tonight and frequent "I can't believe how amazing he is" remarks. On top of constant shit grins, lets not forget those! Wow, it is almost 3 P.M. 

To get myself in the mood (which I don't have to try very hard to do): Tiesto's podcasts. <3 <3 
Did I just do that? I did. Now, it's about time I shower and paint my nails. 

Tonight, I'm going to murder the dance floor.